The 29-year-old recording artist talked about the decision to split from Australian singer Morgan Evans during an episode of the podcast “Tell Me About It with Jade Iovine.”
Ballerini said she’s been “really intuitive and in tune” with herself, which made her decide to end her marriage.
“For a while, it was kind of like, ‘OK, this is just a new phase of a relationship,’ because relationships go through seasons, right? And it’s not always going to be butterflies and rainbows,” she said. “For a long time, I was like, ‘Oh this is just … the glitter wears off. That’s what happens.’ And then you get into a phase where you wait for it to come back. And then sometimes it doesn’t.”
The “half of my hometown” composer admitted that “divorce is a b****,” but also insists she was better off leaving Morgan than continuing to stay in a marriage that made her unhappy.
“At the end of the day, it is such a disservice and a dishonoring of yourself if you know something is not right and you stay,” Ballerini explained. “[Shame] is the one thing that I just refuse to feel. … Judge me for it, fine, that’s on you.”
The country star went on to explain how she’s avoided being alone since announcing her divorce this summer. She’s been relying on friends and family to keep her company.
“Whether it was my mom or my dad or my friends, I’ve had my people really rally for me and I’m not ready to be alone yet,” Ballerini said. “And I don’t think that I’m avoiding anything, ’cause I’m definitely in my feels, ’cause I really want to heal properly. … But yeah, I don’t think that’s what I need right now.”
Ballerini previously remarked on how much her real life feels like a stereotypical country song.
“This is what’s going on, there’s … in my last song [I sing], ‘There’s no judgment or keeping score,’” she said while on stage. “The truth is that this morning I started my day at the courthouse finalizing my divorce and then getting nominated for a Grammy, and then getting the keys to my dream home, and now standing in the circle of the Opry.”
“And s***, if that ain’t country music, I don’t know what is,” the singer concluded.